When The Universe Says No
Things don't often work out exactly how you want them. And this rings true for me when it comes to my path for work. On my best days, I feel bored. On my worst days, I feel trapped. And to be quite honest, it isn't always bad. But when I get my hopes up for a change in job and then the opportunity gets yanked away, I can't help but feel disappointed.
I recently applied for a position at a company that I really admire. Not only for its intimate size of team members but for the message it sends out to the world. Their way of approaching work procedures, employee life and job legacy far surpasses most companies out there (in my opinion).
They had over 300 applicants so I guess realistically, my odds were not great. But this time around, I felt more confident, more self aware, more experienced and ready.
And then the Universe said no. Nope not you. No not this time. No. No. No.
My heart sank when I received the email. On a Friday night. Right before the weekend.
But then I realized, a part of me was still censoring myself so that I could "fit" in with that company group. I censored what I said. Censored how I portrayed myself online. I still respect the company but if I'm going to spend my life strategizing on how I can "fit" into their company atmosphere and group, I think I'm following the wrong trail. My energy should be spent on highlighting who I really am and not altering who I think others think I should be.
So fine. You win Universe. You get it and for that, I'm grateful.
Ready for the next no but always hoping for a good yes.